心情一盘沙

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自从星期五早上，一直很紧张，心乱如麻，不知如何是好。都是因为一时的失口而说出了不该说的秘密，弄得整个人很不安，犹如正在面临完全没准备的大考似，手上的考卷每一题都不会。这样不对，那样也不是办法，走投无路，真的不知该如何是好。难道一切都交给命运吗？很讨厌这样的自己，都怪当时的气氛加上周董的动人旋律，再加上自己的太易下定论的坏习惯，就这样引起了此尴尬的场面。

唉，现在弄得自己一直很担心很烦，不知结句会是如何。虽然秘密的确是不含一丝谎言，而且是已压抑在心里许久的事情，但因为太过唐突，闹场面很尴尬，突然觉得活了二十几年，还是头次感觉到如此苦苦心智不安。突然好希望有一个 reset 按钮可以把一切恢复原点。但不能意味着逃避呀，堂堂正正的大男生怎么可以这么懦弱，一遇到问题就逃避。既然是我所引起的问题，解铃人还须系令人，一个对不起肯定是不够的，但一向内向的我依旧举棋不定，很难走出如此的局面。

“最后，请相信我当时说的都是真心话，只是我这个人根本就不懂得如何掩盖自己的丑陋一面。我固然希望结局会是圆满的，但无需顾虑到我这么多，请为自己好好分析后才做决定。”我解释道。好好解释了一番后，其余的都交给命运吧。我是会坦然接受命运的一切安排。

《等一个人咖啡》 + 咖啡

结果一整天都闷闷不乐，早上时还特地跑去星巴克喝杯咖啡，希望透过咖啡的苦可以给我一些醒觉。我点了cocoa cappuccino，是新的咖啡哦。咖啡再加上九把刀的《等一个人咖啡》真的很有感觉，但依旧挥不去已霸占心许久的伤感。真的希望咱们的友谊并不因为这样就被毁了。喝完了咖啡后在 jusco 走了没一两下就感觉到自己依然那么渺茫，于是便选择回房。

灰灰的天空犹如心中写照

整个下午都在床上翻来翻去，久久不能入睡。唉，真是无可救药了。于是五点多时带了双轮怪兽及过期的面包前往大门口的湖那儿喂鱼，希望看见无忧无虑的鱼儿后心情会好起来。但天空总是灰灰的就好比我的心情，压得心口好闷好难受。唉，我到底怎么啦？不管了，既来之则安之，那我先慢慢把面包撕成碎片，然后扔进湖里。鱼儿不一会儿便闻到食物，一瞬间把面包吃光，真贪吃。不久，有一家人带着几位小孩喂鱼。看见小孩儿的灿烂笑容，心里顿时有些好了起来。小孩儿呀，真羡慕你们啊，那么无忧无虑的，我可否有机会重新过这样的生活？

小孩儿喂鱼

手上的面包都进了鱼儿的肚子后，临时决定在那儿走走，散散心。于是就边走边拍照。雨后的风景也不来的嘛，空气有点冷冷的，但有了雨点的花草树木显得更加美丽。发现到有对新人正在拍结婚照，哇，竟然选择了大学的风景，心想这对新人肯定是这儿的毕业生。大大呼吸了口气，嗯，空气是较新鲜。走呀走，发现到路上有人骑着马。哇，我也想骑马呀，一直都没这个机会。突然想起这周末有个兔与马展，也许我可以在那儿得到我的黄金机会。呵呵。

雨后风景还不赖的

骑马

就在要回房当儿，发现到狐狸有人在划筏。呵呵。我早就在之前的华文班培训营已经划过木筏了。那时的木筏是竹做的，长期浸在水里的木筏因为吸水而沉得更多，更具有挑战性吧。呵呵。

划筏

虽然心情没有完全好起来，但已经好了一半。希望迟钝的我以后会更快观察到四周的变化而不再引起这样尴尬的情景。但愿如此。

English Short Course

It's been a really long time since the last time I attended English Short Courses which was held on every Wednesday afternoon from 2.30pm to 4.30pm. I really enjoyed attending the previous short courses. It not only served as a platform for me to improve on my English, but also served as a good habit for me to spend my free Wednesday afternoon rather than just wasting it on a nap. For me, I still have lots of things to improve on my English, especially my pronunciation and how to speak/write more precisely and concisely. I tend to blurt out long-winded sentences as it has become part of my bad habits which I picked up while writing blog. Yeah, you could see that there are lots of things I need to take note in order to improve on my English.

Few weeks ago, I was greeted with disappointment as the short courses were canceled off due to TECS thingy. After being able to squeeze out some time for the short courses finally, I rode my bike to N24 eagerly. Upon reaching the site, I was quite disappointed that there was no public speaking class, which was my most interested subject offered. For not having English as my mother tongue, I'm quite timid when speaking English in front of others. Yes, I could arrange moderate sentences on a piece of paper, but sometime only teeny voices being blurted out from my mouth when I needed them the most, as if I were a mouse squeaking in front of others. Having known my own weaknesses, I gladly take up the short courses, hoping that I could bid farewell to my weaknesses one day.

After making sure that there wasn't any class but Academic Writing for today, I went on to the room for academic writing. I was immediately greeted with a warm welcome by the lecturer, Ms Naimmah. Her warm welcome really stirred up some emotions, aww, I really missed the short courses. After unloaded my bag, I looked around for familiar faces, however those faces coming into my eyesight were mostly Arabians, except for Teo whom I've met a few times during the short courses. I exchanged a quick greeting with him and found that this was his second time attending the English classes for this semester, he mentioned that there wasn't any English classes due to TECS seminar, which I promptly agreed. I was also told that the class has just started.

Before the lecturer started the class, she asked for a piece of detached paper from everyone. She then told us to scribble something there, imagine that we're trying to write for friendship column in some sort of mags or newspaper, where one writes with the intention to get new friends. Ugh... I don't really like to introduce myself, well, in fact, I'm bad at introducing myself. I'm not really sure what to or how to introduce myself. It took me a quite a while to get started, but when I decided to introduce myself in a not-so-normal way, I flashed back to what's been the first reaction or first impression from others about me. I can't help but snickered, yeah, that would be a really nice way to introduce myself, I thought. My right hand danced swiftly with my ball pen on the stage of a piece of white paper for quite a while.

Upon finished, we exchanged the paper among ourselves and began to rate others as we read, whether we would be interested to get to know that person more and even to be friend with them. Well, since most of the Arabians didn't write much, it would be a very hard to judge them, hence I left quite a lot of answer to 'maybe' instead of only yes and no. At least it won't be as painful as a no which means total rejection, I thought. However Ms Naimmah glared at my answer and reminded me that only yes and no allowed, but I grinned back innocently.

After the short introduction, we entered the topic of the day, that is to learn how to use variety styles of writing to make the piece of writing more interesting. By alternating short and long sentences, the essay could become more catchy than monotonous essay of either all long or all short sentences. Short sentences maximise crucial points, but long sentences work well for incorporating a lot of information. The usage of both short and long sentences together is to deliver our ideas more efficiently. Quite and interesting fact, well, I almost never consider the sentences length when writing and never know that they would bring such effect.

The later part of the class concentrated on 5 ways to make long sentences, that is by using:

1. participial phrases (the use of present continuous, past, past perfect tenses to start a sentence instead of pronoun)
2. adverb clauses (linkers such as although, as, because, before, even though, if, in order that, since etc)
3. adjective clauses (must have subject and verb, answer questions of what kind, how many and which one, usually start with 'which', 'who', 'why', 'that', 'why' etc)
4. compound sentences/verbs (FANBOYS: for, and, nor, but, or, yet, so)

Even though I've learned most of these things before, but it's still quite nice to refresh back things you've learned as it not only strengthens our memory but also acts as a catalyst to boost our self confidence as we are able to recall back things we learned would be like kind of achievement for a student. Well, English is not our first language, but being able to speak it fluently is like a dream for most people, I supposed.


For more info on the short courses or English notes, please refer to the website for more details.
MyLinE

与朋友唱k singing karaoke with friends

在 J 的叮咛下，我出外吃午餐。已许久没去 JUSCO 那儿的 RASAMAS 了，中午时就跑去那儿吃西餐。菜单一到手，我连续翻了几遍，依旧不知道该点什么。眼睛突然察觉到桌上的摆着近期的招牌餐套，不如我就点这个吧。呵呵。不久，餐套便上桌了。虽然菜色果有点不如菜单内的那么棒，但咬了一口在嘴里慢慢咀嚼，嗯，还算是个蛮不错的选择。

吃完午餐后便会工大，帮老大收拾华文班的房间。去华文班柜台路途中，遇到了Cyrus及伟明。原来他们要去外头走走。到了柜台，发现到原来只有老大，大嫂及我三人。顿时觉得自己好像成了电灯泡。哈哈，其实他们也是不介意的，所以咱们边聊天边收拾，很快就把房间收拾好。收拾当儿，发现到挂在空中的那粒纸凤梨，拆下来后不知如何把它折好收进箱里。玩弄了一翻后还是不晓得如何是好。就在这当儿，大嫂把纸凤梨转了一转，剪了一条绳子后边成功把纸凤梨瓦解。还是大嫂厉害。


收拾柜台是为了空出房间让位给讨厌的摄影团体。为了一学期一次的工大毕业照，讨厌的摄影团体将从3月8日借用柜台，一借便是一个月之长，每次还回房间时肯定是乱七八糟的，大胆留下他们的垃圾。两三年前，他们还把华文班柜台的几张椅子搬回去他们的摄影房间，过后还赖账说并没这么做。由于他们得到了上头工大的批准，真的拿他们没办法，只好把心里的所有不悦隐藏在心里，哀声叹了口气，自叹倒霉。

大约三点，敏来了。这时，老大说Cyrus临时约了咱们几位四点去唱k。顿时心里有丝丝的开心，很高兴他们没把我给忘了。心想这是我第一次唱k，应该会是一个很不错的经验吧。虽然我唱歌时完全走音的，但老大说这次唱k算是一种心中的呐喊，无需那么顾虑唱得是否好听。嗯，难得有机会与大伙儿一起大闹一番，我爽口答应了。J说我很幸运，虽然老友已经分道扬镳，但他们依然把我当成一分子。听了这番话后，顿时百感交集，深深感动，形容得非常体贴，谢谢你们，老友。突然想起伍思凯的《分享》：

与你分享的快乐，胜过独自拥有，至今我仍深深感动

好友如同一扇门，让世界变开阔

就这样，咱们八位、敏、雯、老大、大嫂、伟明、Cyrus、阿哈和我就浩浩荡荡从工大出发了。路途中有说有笑，由于司机雯还是个新手，她的室友敏就在指导方向。敏又是给了太多的选择而频频闹出小插曲，比如可以跟A路线到达目的地，也可用B路线到达，就是因为太多选择但太少时间做决定，弄得司机满头雾水。所以老大拔刀相助，建议只需给一条路线即可。而咱们则在车后笑个不停。

半个小时后终于到大嘴叭，唱k的地点。由于主脑还没到，所以我们等了一会儿。这是的我不禁想起从前，从不曾与友人一起唱歌过，就算有也是在培训营或红新月会生活营时哼哼了几句，不曾拿着麦克风大展歌喉。一想起到这里就有些紧张，一旦经过麦克风把声音放大后，我那走音问题岂不就大刺刺展现在每个人眼前了吗？顿时捏了把汗，有些担心等下回献丑了。就在我正胡思乱想当儿，突然大伙儿不约而同往外，原来Cyrus、伟明及阿哈来了。只见Cyrus从钱包里亮出会员卡然后便付钱。这时气氛很明显变得更佳了，我顿时忘了刚才的担忧，跟着大伙儿一起走，准备大展歌喉了。

登记

一到了唱k房间，大伙儿便点了水喝。深怕不听话的咳嗽又反复，我点了杯温美禄。过后，咱们来了几首简单的歌热身热身一下，都只唱了歌曲的上半节后就换歌，都怪时间不充足嘛。这时，阿哈与伟明俩争着点歌，偶尔在忘我境界当儿突然大声起来，大嫂立刻训了他们俩几句，驯服了他们。来唱k时争着点歌也许是正常的，但堂堂正正的大男生竟然被一位女生所训话，真是怪景。话说回来，老大虽然每天被大嫂欺负但依旧乐在其中。哈哈。还是客套话一句，开心就好。

蛮美的壁画

唱了几首歌曲热身后，平均一首歌只花了一分钟半，大家逐渐high了起来。这时，突然伟明建议我点几首歌曲来唱，他还边笑边说一定要唱周杰伦的歌曲。奇 怪，他怎么会知道我有听周董的歌曲，难道说他记得我在面子书上曾post 过周杰伦的歌曲？哈哈。应该是这样吧。随便啦，反正大家尽兴就好。于是点了几首周杰伦的歌曲，包括了给我一首歌的时间、青花瓷和发如雪。伟明一时兴起，建议咱们挑战几首较高难度的歌曲如丸子的爱你卡农及周杰伦的以父之名、爱在西元前和听妈妈的话。哇，都是超难唱的歌曲，随便啦，反正有歌词。等等，即使有歌词也不一定能唱，有些歌曲只限于周杰伦自己一个人唱的，都是太快了，而且他的咬字不清耶。

说到周杰伦，其实老大也是个名副其实的歌迷哦。哈哈，之前一起等巴士时，我突然一时想给他听一首由周杰伦歌迷所编出来的歌曲，名为《yes周杰伦》。在之前的文章我曾提到此歌曲，相信读者还记得吧。我当时跟着歌曲哼哼了几句，而他也跟着喜欢上了这首歌曲，也跟着哼了起来。此刻才发现到原来老大也喜欢周董的歌曲。呵呵。唱周杰伦的歌时，伟明、老大及我各拿了一只麦克风，轻轻咳了句便开始了。都喜爱周杰伦的歌曲的咱们三人，唱起他的歌来特别有味道，已经无暇顾虑他人的眼神，大大声唱歌爽快。只是一到了那些较难唱的歌曲时，我还是投降了，只剩下老大和伟明偶尔唱，我只能简单的啦啦啦伴奏呵呵。说起来也惭愧，什么周杰伦迷嘛。

轮到丸子的爱你卡农时，哈哈，只有伟明独掌大旗了，结果只唱了二十几秒后便被下毒手了，直接跳去下一首歌。唉，对不起，伟明。 我真的只能对这些饶舌歌曲挂白旗，顶多也是啦啦啦马马虎虎带过罢了。过后，有几首男女合唱歌曲，大家都唱的很过瘾，有几位一时high起就站在沙发上唱歌。呵呵。果然，大家都似乎有点high过头了。最后两首歌事古巨基的勁歌金曲一与二，由于都是广东歌曲，再加上我并不熟悉他的歌曲，所以我只是在旁静静聆听别人唱。突然发现伟明也没跟着唱，心想也许他也不会广东话，也许只是我多心罢了。这首长达十多分钟的歌曲是唯一一首大伙儿从头唱到尾的歌曲，也许当中勾起无数的记忆吧，所以他们都唱得非常高兴。

准备回家

时间是残酷的，七点一到，荧幕已出现了催我们回家的字幕了。当时大伙儿还在唱着劲歌金曲那首歌曲，Cyrus酷酷地说还有一点时间，果然，成功吧劲歌金曲唱完了。正要进入劲歌金曲二时，荧幕突然变成了广告的歌曲，都是一些没听过的，心想都是新歌吧。于是，大家才依依不舍会工大。真的很过瘾，谢谢每位老友，谢谢你们带我去唱k，是我终身难忘的美好回忆。再次说声谢谢。