afterthought for Japan's 8.9 earthquake & tsunami

Well, I don't really want to write about some disaster just because it happened, but it's different this time, what can I say, well, Japanese are very unique community.

First, let's take a look at the photos circulated around the internet, we can see dozens of disaster pictures, a whole town was swept clean, houses being completely destroyed to nothing but debris, cars and even ships landed perfectly on buildings due to the tsunami, 10k+ people still being reported missing till now and was feared to have very minimal chances of living, at least 3 nuclear reactors have exploded, 50 samurai-spirited people stayed in the radiation polluted building just to minimise the radiation leak which is most likely to bring death upon themselves after 2 weeks due to strong radiation exposure for a long period of time, families hanging photos of their missing siblings around their neck in hoping to find them, all starving Japanese disaster victim sat quietly in order while waiting for food and never shout or cause disorder just because they don't want to add more problem to the current stricken situation...

From these situations, we can summarise that the Japanese communities are:

1. A group of highly-ordered community, they are being taught to obey the rules set by authorities ever since a kid. They put priority at the overall goodness for everyone but not just oneself. This is a very good example for everyone all around the world. I highly doubt that any other country would display such a similar highly-ordered situation in a desperate condition, especially in my own country, each races cares too much about themselves.
2. Even though the radioactive leak is a very dire situation, there are still 50 warriors who dare to risk their lives just to exchange for betterment of more people. These 50 warriors are mostly over 50's and some are volunteers. For helping more people by sacrificing themselves as they expose to radiation over and over again and experts said that at least 70% of them would die in 2 weeks' time, these samurai warriors set a very good example to everyone that we should not just care about ourselves, but also those around us. I cried a bit when I read this news, it's so touching.
3. Natural disaster is a very great tragedy, but a caring heart shines so brightly at time like this and it warms the icing heart of us all, it's always good to know that even though we are living in a modern time but there are still kindhearted people so much caring for others.
4. While living in a very calm country like Malaysia, are we ready for any unexpected event or disaster? Is our bond among races strong enough to face any challenges?

End of my rantings, well, just an afterthought.

马及兔展 Horsey & Bunny Show

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星期六去湖边散散心是想起这周末有马及兔展。于是隔天下午三时许一个人骑着双轮怪兽到马场，瞧瞧这马展究竟是如何的。也许是最后一天了，也许是因为炎热的下午等种种理由，这儿并没想象中那么多人。不过呢，真合我心意，我可以随意拍照，无需顾虑他人眼神如何。毕竟，我还是较内向的，所以拍照时有时会觉得不好意思嘛。

放好双轮怪兽后，我看见几位叔叔拉着马儿走朝向马场。于是我赶紧亮出了相机把这一幕抓个正。咔嚓。呵呵。入口那儿发现到有几位在舞台上表演，有吉他表演及打鼓表演，不好意思，不知道真正的词汇因为小弟对音乐并不是那么了解。怎么说呢，感觉上他们的表演时还不错的，有模有样，但没有音乐细胞的我不能给予更仔细的讲解。呵呵。观众似乎看的蛮过瘾的，表演完毕后绝不吝啬给予鼓掌。

我的眼睛忙着四处寻找兔展在哪儿，小弟对这令人爱不释手的小可特别喜爱。远处有人正在射箭，射箭往往令人有种很帅气的感觉。一直以来很像尝试射箭的滋味，也许可以练出百步穿杨的技术也说不定，不过对于只有三分热度的我，唉，确实是难上加难，还是别说梦话吧。呵呵。哦，这是才发现到在射箭不远处有几个白色笼子，笼子内好像有白白色的东西在动着，不会就是我正在寻找的白兔吧。于是我加快脚步走向那儿。

果然，笼子里就是我正在寻找的白兔，心里不禁暗喜了一阵子。而且，真的蛮多种类，有些身体较长的、有些很明显较大只、有些则毛很长、有些是黑色的、有些是白色的、有些则白色带些黑点。。。见到了这么多种类，发现到自己对白兔的了解真的很少。好吧，现在就带大家一起进入兔子世界。

Satin Rex

Mini Rex (left), Netherland dwarf (right)

Woody Toy

哇咔咔，看了这么多张照片很过瘾吧。拍好照片后，我正想离开时，那位管档子的叔叔问我是否要与兔子合照。我立刻答应了。他还教我如何用手抓着兔子，那就是一手抓着背部，另一首撑着腿部，正如以下这张图片。

看好兔子后，我就去看马。路上，依旧有几位叔叔牵着马再到路上行走。当然，我不放过拍照机会。呵呵。

接近马休息的帐篷时，发现到有马车。由于只有我一个人来观看，所以不想坐马车了，唯拍了张照片留念。这儿的马儿是蛮大的。

马车

马 horses

马 horse

由于气候炎热，短短一个小时已足以让我汗流浃背了。就在要回家的那刻，发现到有几位年轻人正在玩遥控车，连看的我也觉得很过瘾。呵呵。

遥控车 control cars

就这样，我度过了一个美丽的星期日下午。

心情一盘沙

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自从星期五早上，一直很紧张，心乱如麻，不知如何是好。都是因为一时的失口而说出了不该说的秘密，弄得整个人很不安，犹如正在面临完全没准备的大考似，手上的考卷每一题都不会。这样不对，那样也不是办法，走投无路，真的不知该如何是好。难道一切都交给命运吗？很讨厌这样的自己，都怪当时的气氛加上周董的动人旋律，再加上自己的太易下定论的坏习惯，就这样引起了此尴尬的场面。

唉，现在弄得自己一直很担心很烦，不知结句会是如何。虽然秘密的确是不含一丝谎言，而且是已压抑在心里许久的事情，但因为太过唐突，闹场面很尴尬，突然觉得活了二十几年，还是头次感觉到如此苦苦心智不安。突然好希望有一个 reset 按钮可以把一切恢复原点。但不能意味着逃避呀，堂堂正正的大男生怎么可以这么懦弱，一遇到问题就逃避。既然是我所引起的问题，解铃人还须系令人，一个对不起肯定是不够的，但一向内向的我依旧举棋不定，很难走出如此的局面。

“最后，请相信我当时说的都是真心话，只是我这个人根本就不懂得如何掩盖自己的丑陋一面。我固然希望结局会是圆满的，但无需顾虑到我这么多，请为自己好好分析后才做决定。”我解释道。好好解释了一番后，其余的都交给命运吧。我是会坦然接受命运的一切安排。

《等一个人咖啡》 + 咖啡

结果一整天都闷闷不乐，早上时还特地跑去星巴克喝杯咖啡，希望透过咖啡的苦可以给我一些醒觉。我点了cocoa cappuccino，是新的咖啡哦。咖啡再加上九把刀的《等一个人咖啡》真的很有感觉，但依旧挥不去已霸占心许久的伤感。真的希望咱们的友谊并不因为这样就被毁了。喝完了咖啡后在 jusco 走了没一两下就感觉到自己依然那么渺茫，于是便选择回房。

灰灰的天空犹如心中写照

整个下午都在床上翻来翻去，久久不能入睡。唉，真是无可救药了。于是五点多时带了双轮怪兽及过期的面包前往大门口的湖那儿喂鱼，希望看见无忧无虑的鱼儿后心情会好起来。但天空总是灰灰的就好比我的心情，压得心口好闷好难受。唉，我到底怎么啦？不管了，既来之则安之，那我先慢慢把面包撕成碎片，然后扔进湖里。鱼儿不一会儿便闻到食物，一瞬间把面包吃光，真贪吃。不久，有一家人带着几位小孩喂鱼。看见小孩儿的灿烂笑容，心里顿时有些好了起来。小孩儿呀，真羡慕你们啊，那么无忧无虑的，我可否有机会重新过这样的生活？

小孩儿喂鱼

手上的面包都进了鱼儿的肚子后，临时决定在那儿走走，散散心。于是就边走边拍照。雨后的风景也不来的嘛，空气有点冷冷的，但有了雨点的花草树木显得更加美丽。发现到有对新人正在拍结婚照，哇，竟然选择了大学的风景，心想这对新人肯定是这儿的毕业生。大大呼吸了口气，嗯，空气是较新鲜。走呀走，发现到路上有人骑着马。哇，我也想骑马呀，一直都没这个机会。突然想起这周末有个兔与马展，也许我可以在那儿得到我的黄金机会。呵呵。

雨后风景还不赖的

骑马

就在要回房当儿，发现到狐狸有人在划筏。呵呵。我早就在之前的华文班培训营已经划过木筏了。那时的木筏是竹做的，长期浸在水里的木筏因为吸水而沉得更多，更具有挑战性吧。呵呵。

划筏

虽然心情没有完全好起来，但已经好了一半。希望迟钝的我以后会更快观察到四周的变化而不再引起这样尴尬的情景。但愿如此。